Free Fallin..

boy.. wat a roller coaster ride the last few days have been...
from the absolute acme of feelin great.. to fallin to abysmal lows..

which is pretty much where i currently am. n somehow.. these murky depths are not as murky as i thought it to be.. somehow.. thoughts seem to be clearer...
mind seems less cluttered..It feels as if i may now grow a pair of strong wings.. tat will help me fly up n away.. out of this mess..mebbe...mebbe some day.

k.. now to talk abt somethin tat has nuthin to do with me...
why is it that when u list out the people tat genuinely care abt u.. ur parents will almost always feature in tat list..?

wat is the reason why parents leave such an indelible mark, of their love and care for us, on our minds.. which remains even after we move out of our parents' homes.. become adults.. n have our own families..??

From their point of view, wat is it that drives them to make so many sacrifices for their children, place them above everything else...?
the basic human nature to raise n look after their young..? to a certain extent..yes.

lets just assume..tat its not tat.. then wat else..?

an investment..? "i invest time n love in my children tday.. they repay me when i grow old n i need their love n care"..
(very pessimistic.. but u cant deny the practicality..)

Is it becuz they are possessive by nature.. n since we children are "their property".. they will take good care of us..?
(seriously flawed reason.. i rubbish it myself, right now..!)

Is it a sense of obligation,... the cliched.." yes, ive given birth to this kid.. the world expects me to look after it well"..???
(hmm..a sense of obligation wont evoke the genuine warmth n care your parents give u.. but for "everything else".. mebbe)

is it becuz we children are cute and u know.. evoke feelings of parental love in our biological parents..??( hehe.. at my age i.e 22.. if my parents find me "cute".. there is def somethin wrong somewhere!!!!)

its strange.. but u just cant figure out the right reasons..
the knowledge tat no matter wat happens tom..
even if lovers break up.. friends desert..life turns into hell..
i feel safe .. knowin tat my parents will always be there for me.

" a plant tat shot up from the earth, grew slowly into a gr8 giant tree
many branches n leaves it sprouted, each gently swaying in the wind
each swayed in a different direction, none forgot it still belonged to tat tree"

-Rn.